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Incomplete and All Alone - Javie

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Eternal pain, something I will take to my grave
Your memory is an image I just can't erase


I tried not to look as Jayy stared at Jeffree. We had just departed for Warped Tour, and of course, since the world seems to hate me, Jeffree was touring with us.

"Jayy?" Jeffree asked, causing Jayy to instantly perk up.

"Yeah?" he asked happily. I just couldn't handle anymore.

I got to my feet and went to the back room, lying down on my bed.

I spend my life always walking in the shadows
Scared, alone, locked away inside my castle


Hours later, I woke up in the dark. I had fallen asleep for hours without even realizing it.

I slowly sat up and rubbed my face, attempting to wake myself up. I realized that there were dried tears on my face. I had been crying in my sleep. Great.

"Hey Dahvie, we're gonna be stopping for food in a while. Do you want anything?" Jayy asked me, looking over from watching TV with Jeffree.

"Just get me anything." I replied, then locked myself in the bathroom. I knew it was bad, but I just didn't know what else to do...

And when you love something, they say set it free
If it don't come back, it wasn't meant to be


I summoned all my painful memories of Jayy into my mind, and slowly brought the blade across my wrist with each memory I conjured up.

Finally, when I felt a little better, I put the blade back in it's little hiding spot, a loose section of the plastic in the medicine cabinet where there was a small little cubby perfect for hiding the little blade.

I destroy everything I touch
Even things I love too much
I am cursed with these hands
They will never understand


"FUCK!" I screamed, throwing the empty bottle of Jack Daniel's into the wall. I hadn't been drinking it, it had just been left on the counter in the kitchen.

Tonight the bands had been able to stay in a hotel.

Too bad the rooms had damnably thin walls.

I don't want to let you go
Incomplete and all alone


You've got to let him go Haley's words rang through my mind.

"NO!" I screamed at no one in particular, then threw a random glass into the wall I had thrown the Jack into.

"Dahvie?" I looked over and saw Jayy standing in the doorway to the bus, tears rolling down his cheeks.

I simply stared at him, not sure what to say or do.

"Jeffree dumped me..." he whispered, and I felt my eyes widen slightly.

Here I am waiting for my sacred true love
With these hands that will be just like a steel glove


"Does it hurt?" I asked in an emotionless voice.

He slowly nodded and looked at me. Sickeningly, I felt a sense of amusement deep inside of me.

"Good. Now you know how I feel."

I destroy everything I touch
Even things I love too much
I am cursed with these hands
They will never understand
I don't want to let you go
Incomplete and all alone


I wiped the concealer off of my arm and held it out to Jayy, "These are because of you." I whispered in a pained voice, "Because you shattered my heart Jayy Von Monroe."

He stared at me in horror, not saying anything. I kept staring him down, then shook my head and ran into the bathroom, locking the door.

I grabbed my blade and started dragging it across my skin, not stopping when I reached my usual limit.

I'm incomplete and all alone

I leaned against the counter, gripping the edge tightly, trying to keep the black from swallowing my vision. "J-Jayy.." I managed to choke out as I crashed to the floor. I heard a faint banging on the door, then heard it crash open.

"DAHVIE!" I heard Jayy scream, right before my world went black.

I don't want to let you go
i WAS gonna make this a happy ending, but eh.

i actually might make a third chapter, if i don't wanna make dahvie be dead...

btw, this is the sequeal to Loveotomy (found here : [link] )
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Part 2 please at that dahvie lives PLEASE